Writing cramp...

I fear I might be getting a writing cramp... well not really. I have promised my cousin to write their place cards for their 25th wedding anniversary party. 

I just got the list of names the other day, and got to it right away. This way I could split them up and do a little at the time. 

It's kind of weird writing place cards for her 25th wedding anniversary. I know she is older than me, but I don't consider her old, but to me 25 years of marriage has always been something old people achieved... 

On the other hand my parents will have their 50th wedding anniversary next year in December... can you believe it 50 years? So is 50  years for really old people? 

I guess the older you get, your perspective on things change. We might not grow up, we might not feel old, which is probably why I don't consider my cousin old, even if she is in her late 40's.  So when are we actually old?

Sometimes I just feel old...

Sometimes you just feel old... well maybe not you, but sometimes I do feel old, not physical (okay sometimes my body feels old too), but mentally... someone says something, or you read something and you just feel old.

Like this fall, we had a couple of new guys starting in our department, I know they are working after school, and they were only 16 and 17 years old. But when I saw their date of birth it hit hard, they were born in 1995 and 1996, then I felt old, I'm twice as old as them.

Then today it hit me again. We were doing some really boring work, where you didn't have to think, but it gave us the opportunity to chat a little. I don't exactly know how it came up, but one girl mentioned Kurt Cobain, and our apprentice didn't know who he was... first I was a bit shocked, how could he not know who Kurt Cobain was? It turned out that thankfully he did know who Nirvana was, but he had no idea that Kurt Cobain was their lead singer... we talked for a bit about him, and when we told him he had committed suicide in 1994 he said "that's why I don't know who he is, I was only 3 years old in 1994"... again I felt old!

Do you ever have that feeling? 

What is age really?

Remember how excited you were about you birthday when you were a kid? Back then getting older could only go too slow, if someone asked you how old you were, you answered 4½ or 5 3/4. Why don't we do this any longer? I think I'll start to do that again, so if someone asks in 3 months how old I am, my proud answer will be "I'm 31 and 3 months!"

Me and my "niece" at my 30th birthday last year!

Why is it that we aren't that proud of our age any longer, why don't we (okay I can only speak for myself), so why don't I get as excited about my birthday any longer... I figure it's like everything else you have done several times. Let's face it the first time you drove a car it was exciting, but after driving for 13 years, not so exciting any longer, the first time you go on a airplane, you are excited, after having travelled a bit, the plane ride it not so exciting, it's the destination. So I guess after having had 30 birthdays, the 31st not so exciting.

Though I wish I could get that excited about my birthday again, maybe I should try planning a bit more than work for my next birthday... I have plenty of time to do it!

A few years ago they started a project for retarded to get into the workplace at my work. One of the ladies one day came up to be, and said "You know what? It's my birthday on Thursday", she sounded really excited about it, and I congratulated her, asking her how old she turned, she very proudly told me "I'm turning 42"

I should probably learn a bit from her, so next year I promise I'll be excited about my birthday, and I'll try not to make it a 14 hour workday!