If I had known that I would pass my due date with 5 days and still counting back when I got pregnant, I might have lied to everyone and told them I was due March 1st!
Patience has never been a strong side of mine, but I'm mentally preparing myself for not going into labour in the next week or so. It's perfectly normal that a first time pregnancy will pass the due date with up to 2 weeks. Convincing myself is starting to work, but when I get a phone call or a text from someone asking if I have given birth...
And all of the sudden I feel like they are blaming me for doing something wrong. When I tell them I still haven't given birth, they answer they didn't think so, because then I would have called or texted them... well why the h*** do you ask then? Rationally I know people only ask because they are interested and because they care, but because of the hormones (or what do I know) I feel like I'm doing something wrong.
It all became too much on Saturday where I broke down crying! Not a thing I'm proud of, but I just couldn't take it any longer. So now I'm screening my calls only answering when my parents or my in laws are calling (can you believe that my mother in law didn't call until yesterday, and I hadn't talked to her since Monday, almost a whole week), or if I know that this is someone I can talk honestly to, and I haven't been answering any texts over the weekend (one friend have been texting me everyday to hear if I have given birth, and that she doesn't expect me to but if I can please make sure I will tell her as soon as I have!).
On Thursday a couple of friends came by after they had been grocery shopping. It was the best, they weren't asking if it wasn't about time to pop the baby. She actually told me a neutral friend had come home from a skiing vacation and asked them if I had given birth. She had given the perfect answer "I don't know, but I'm sure we will know if she have, and I'm not calling them to ask, I remember that being the worst thing people could do when I was pregnant". I love her for that comment, if only she talked to more of our friends:)
So if I haven't given birth by Thursday I have an appointment at the midwife, where I think she will order an ultrasound for the week after, and if then I still haven't given birth they might give me something to go into labour all depending on how the ultrasound will go.
Sorry for the long complaining post, I hope you all will have a great week!